31st December 2001

The dream is mainly set around school. I'm hanging round with Nat, one of my friends, and Eliza starts on me. I'm fighting back. Nat's shouting and jumping up and down like a mad loony (as she often does!). I end up slamming Amanda into a wall several times... but she sorta slides along the floor as if she's lying on a skateboard of something. She bounces between each wall. Then when we go back into class everyone tells me that Amanda's going to hospital and is dying. That she had a broken nose and bad concussion and had lost a lot of blood. They were telling me how I was a murderer and that I was going to be thrown out of school and that the police would be after me. Then someone came and told me I was to leave the school premises. I replied with 'more time to watch the box and MTV'. When I got home my dad was going mad. I decided to deny it all. So I said, what have I done. I acted angry because no one had even asked me what happened and the only person that had seen it happen was Nat. That night I got nothing but grief. I needed someone to talk to. I went outside, told mum I was going for some fresh air. I was going to go and call Mikey my bf but I was out of credit. I went back inside and went to bed. The next morning was my birthday. I opened my presents and then we had a phone call saying that the head of school wanted to see me at 9:00am. So I got dressed and when I went to go in the bathroom to have a wash my friend Kristin was in there. She didn't know what had gone on as she had been suspended a few weeks before. So I told her what I'd been accused of and denied it all and she laughed. She said she hated Amanda anyway. Then she started laughing at my Hanson CD. I told her to get out the bathroom cos I had to get ready then I went looking for the tweezers to pluck my eyebrows and I did my make-up. On the way to school in the car with my mum I opened some more presents. We decided to take the long way there as we were early. We parked up in the school car park.


	Colorblind Porthole \| home 31st December 2001 \| 30th December 2001 \| Past Dreams 31st December 2001 Ok well this dream is based on me and a girl from school I really hate. Her name is Eliza but throughout the dream she was referred to as Amanda, probably because she used to hang round with a girl called Amanda and I was never sure which one was Amanda and which one was Eliza. The dream is mainly set around school. I'm hanging round with Nat, one of my friends, and Eliza starts on me. I'm fighting back. Nat's shouting and jumping up and down like a mad loony (as she often does!). I end up slamming Amanda into a wall several times... but she sorta slides along the floor as if she's lying on a skateboard of something. She bounces between each wall. Then when we go back into class everyone tells me that Amanda's going to hospital and is dying. That she had a broken nose and bad concussion and had lost a lot of blood. They were telling me how I was a murderer and that I was going to be thrown out of school and that the police would be after me. Then someone came and told me I was to leave the school premises. I replied with 'more time to watch the box and MTV'. When I got home my dad was going mad. I decided to deny it all. So I said, what have I done. I acted angry because no one had even asked me what happened and the only person that had seen it happen was Nat. That night I got nothing but grief. I needed someone to talk to. I went outside, told mum I was going for some fresh air. I was going to go and call Mikey my bf but I was out of credit. I went back inside and went to bed. The next morning was my birthday. I opened my presents and then we had a phone call saying that the head of school wanted to see me at 9:00am. So I got dressed and when I went to go in the bathroom to have a wash my friend Kristin was in there. She didn't know what had gone on as she had been suspended a few weeks before. So I told her what I'd been accused of and denied it all and she laughed. She said she hated Amanda anyway. Then she started laughing at my Hanson CD. I told her to get out the bathroom cos I had to get ready then I went looking for the tweezers to pluck my eyebrows and I did my make-up. On the way to school in the car with my mum I opened some more presents. We decided to take the long way there as we were early. We parked up in the school car park. That's when I woke up. Weird but cool dream. I can't stand Eliza. Anyway, when I looked up what most of this means I found lots of stuff on violent resolution of problems, financial gain, creativity, knowledge and intellect, and idealizing myself, how I want to be seen by the outside world, insecurity about who I am etc.